Why? 2009

Amazing

Reflections

of

Moments

Both sad and

happy

Tears have been shed

Revealing pain

Heartache

Naked

trembling

Loneliness

Settling

Even with

one so

Wonderfully

kind

Still not

Being true

to thundering

Passions echoing

Through the soul

Still here

Hoping

One day

After nearly a decade

Wishing

Memories will

shower down

dissolving

The numbing

Veil

Wrapped so tight

It suffocates

Passion

Killing it

Hopeful

Memories

Will explode

Like fireworks

in the night

favorite colors

songs

delicious meals shared

birthdays

scents

first times

all

will flood

to the for front

of the mind

remembering

how to touch

where to

caress

wanting

to kiss

the spot

so sweet

it sets the

skin aflame

so intoxicating

that spot

just breathing

on it causes

vision to be lost

fumbling

in the

darkness

guided only by

touch

taste

scent

hoping

for the memory

the act

to be

resurrected

but

if all others

pale

in comparison

why not say?

If the beauty

Is so profound

Why not offer

compliments

Unprompted?

If the touch

addicting

Why

Deny it?

If the kiss

So skillfully

Befuddling

Why not explore

The mouth

Taste

The tongue?

If the mind

Is intriguing?

Why not

Converse

Or answer

questions?

If the one

Before you

Is the epitome

Of what a

Woman

Should be

Why deny

The gift

Only a man

Can provide?

Even shying

Away from the act

is

Mindlessly

Neglecting

a withering garden

Why is

this

so easy

to disregard?

Morning Thoughts~

My instructions: Lay naked, think about her, and reflect. 

mmmmm  naked time,  I never get enough of it, and Master knows it. It was quiet this morning, as everyone left unusually early, I was able to take a little extra time in my tasks. 

Reflections whilst naked was one of my rewards for serving well and being well used the night before. coming home happy and content, I was able to sleep six hours straight. Huzzah!

Hot shower, oils and lotions, candles, and of course music.

Anointing myself, I let the thoughts of this woman fill my mind.  

Almost surprised at how easily detailed fantasizing about her was,

the sweetness of taste,

softness of the caress

the feel of her long hair

the smell of her

a woman who is, not even aware of what she does

so beautifully radiant everyone looks at her when she walks in. 

makes my heart skip a beat thinking about her. 

I enjoyed the feel of the slightest breeze

cooling my burning impassioned flesh

I wondered about her, hoped she was doing well. Not expecting a reply, but wanting her to know I was thinking well of her, I sent a text to her, wishing her well and hoped that she had a delicious day.  It felt good.  

Nothing will come of it, but it was nice to indulge in the sensual feminine. Even if for just a moment.  Fantasizing and reflecting made me realize how much I miss being a lover to a woman.  Also, treasured relationships take time.  

All in all, todays task reminded me of why I don't settle and why I keep trying in every aspect of my life. 

Morning discussions

Man 1 (M1) and I had a great conversation this morning. A time of checking in, reflecting, lovingly discussing old and new things.

Discussing the seriousness of neglect, M1 helps me be honest with what is really happening, helps focus,and find solutions.

Each moment clarifying that actions speak louder than words. Coming to find something else about myself ~ a three minute insertion by a half flacid cock that keeps gettig softer and softer does NOT count as penetration. No, lover, I really don't do it for you. and that's ok.

There is someone I DID do IT for. He and his hard cock were One of the most wonderful passionate things I've experienced in a rather long time.and it was fun!

M1 is happy about my experiences with this person, regardless of whether or not sex is involved. M1 is excited and excited for me. We are both hoping for good things, and regardless of what happens the friendship is here for him from both of us.

Honestly, M1 is excited about having someone to befriend, though he is still cautious. Especially with what is happening with M2 and what happened with woman 1 (W1).

I don't blame him, but I don't want to carry that baggage and throw it onto anyone else. I don't think it's fair.

Both of us are focusing on the positive, excited for new things, and welcoming new people into our life.

Realizing, wih great joy in my heart, that the happiness and excitement is similar and radiating from M1~ even though he is proceeding with caution.

I'm a lucky girl, blessed with wonderful people in my life. They may be coming, going, or hanging on for the ride, but they are there. I am learning from and growing because of them. Regardless of if the experience is positive or negative, I am blessed, becoming better because of them.

ps~ special thanks to M1 for helping me write this blog~

Beginnings

Beginnings

by Liquidjade 

2009:

How I wish this moment would never end. My mind and body filled with you.  I made your favorite meals, opened your favorite wine, and lit the fires to your welcome.  Three days of celebration of feeling you, being with you, and talking with you.  The ending of the year is always bitter sweet. Looking forward to new adventures, new beginnings, and yet relishing my time with you, here, now.  I do not want to say goobye, therefore I will not.  I will say until the next turn with all my love. I will share what I have learned, my adventures, and my growth with you.